Solivagant

There's a letter in my notebook from when I was young It reads, "I need to go mom, if I don't I'll kill myself" I wrote this not because she was a bad mom But because I felt like the worst daughter I used to pick up razors and drag them along my skin As if I were painting the Sistine Chapel I did this not because I liked the feeling But because I just could not feel My whole life I would do things not because of others But because of myself I attacked and hurt myself thinking it was all my fault I got raped by five guys when I was 10 I went home and locked it up in my mind not even thinking about it for the next 7 years I kept quiet, not because I was afraid of them but because I was ashamed as if it were my fault That's the thing "My fault"? Why did I put these ideas into my head It wasn't my fault It wasn't my fault

If you guys want something interesting to hear, my absolute favorite poem is To This Day  by Shane K. If you're ever feeling alone or like you just can't do it anymore, this will help! If you would like to see more of my picture you could to my photography website  and if you feel like reading another good blog,  TyTy's Universe  is a good one to read. (: